I have done this faster in 7 days at the Hoffman Process. Came in blank and empty inside. Scared 😱 of my own lack of empathy and feeling. 7 days later came out feeling absolutely fucking everything. And everyone - I could look at the person and feel their anxiety, shame, aversion to connection, curiosity, kindness…from hypo to hyper in 7 days. I felt so intensely - it was unbearable at times. And above all, I felt profound love ❤️ for all human beings. I still remember thinking - 🤔 wow 😮 this is must have been how Jesus Christ and Buddha felt towards people. It subsided and normalised after about 2 weeks. But I will always remember that feeling. It was pure bliss. Like going to heaven alive.
That must have been amazing! And now that your aperture has widened from your experience, you can more easily pursue that connection with the somatic. You know what's possible.
Do you have any favorite tips on how to find one's connection to their body? I know we've discussed tweaking one's biological phenomenology through supplements and hormones; because that also increases the aperture of feeling.
"The body was the last room I had not yet entered. It took protocols and a coach and a year of explicit somatic practice and forty-five years of waiting. When I finally got there, I found that everything I had been theorizing was sitting inside it, waiting to be felt rather than understood." Not me crying?! Breathless here. I don't really have words, but you know I know.
That's quite a journey you've detailed. I'm glad that you are finding feelings, recognizing them, and allowing them to share what they have to offer before they move on. That's my journey, too. I'm doing much better today than I was two years ago, thanks to a very wise mentor and guide who has been teaching me how feelings and emotions are a superpower - in essence, giving me the guidebook to observe, learn, and feel how my own nervous system communicates with me; this process has changed my life.
I'm still in the middle of my own journey, and yet I recognize so many of your questioning experiences in my own life, albeit in a few different domains. Thanks for sharing your own meticulous records of your self-discovery.
I prefer not to think about the future because I think the current trend of selling mid-life audhd discovery as something like an eternal burnout is not very life-affirming. I am still struggling to find my own (non-commercial) versio of it.
Ooohh... I'd love your perspective on this. I'm struggling with the other side of the coin. The concept of making revenue from anything that could be related to personal discovery. One approach I've considered is to open-source the frameworks and tools, and then offering other services as revenue channels.
It can sometimes feel gross though, especially since the safety of souls is more important than $$.
Would you be willing to chat about any of this? I could use some more perspectives and it sounds like you've explored this a bit.
I have done this faster in 7 days at the Hoffman Process. Came in blank and empty inside. Scared 😱 of my own lack of empathy and feeling. 7 days later came out feeling absolutely fucking everything. And everyone - I could look at the person and feel their anxiety, shame, aversion to connection, curiosity, kindness…from hypo to hyper in 7 days. I felt so intensely - it was unbearable at times. And above all, I felt profound love ❤️ for all human beings. I still remember thinking - 🤔 wow 😮 this is must have been how Jesus Christ and Buddha felt towards people. It subsided and normalised after about 2 weeks. But I will always remember that feeling. It was pure bliss. Like going to heaven alive.
That must have been amazing! And now that your aperture has widened from your experience, you can more easily pursue that connection with the somatic. You know what's possible.
Do you have any favorite tips on how to find one's connection to their body? I know we've discussed tweaking one's biological phenomenology through supplements and hormones; because that also increases the aperture of feeling.
Well I have already recommended the Hoffman Process. No other modality was as effective and as fast against my childhood trauma induced Alexithymia.
"The body was the last room I had not yet entered. It took protocols and a coach and a year of explicit somatic practice and forty-five years of waiting. When I finally got there, I found that everything I had been theorizing was sitting inside it, waiting to be felt rather than understood." Not me crying?! Breathless here. I don't really have words, but you know I know.
It's a wild ride, ain't it?! 🌊
That's quite a journey you've detailed. I'm glad that you are finding feelings, recognizing them, and allowing them to share what they have to offer before they move on. That's my journey, too. I'm doing much better today than I was two years ago, thanks to a very wise mentor and guide who has been teaching me how feelings and emotions are a superpower - in essence, giving me the guidebook to observe, learn, and feel how my own nervous system communicates with me; this process has changed my life.
I'm still in the middle of my own journey, and yet I recognize so many of your questioning experiences in my own life, albeit in a few different domains. Thanks for sharing your own meticulous records of your self-discovery.
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Yes! A guide who understands some of our inner workings and phenomenology is key. That's great that you have one!
I'd love to hear more about your journey across different domains. Thanks for subscribing!
Thank you for describing your process so carefully.
Certainly! I love that you can see how careful I am with it. That's the critical part!
I am going through the same. For example I understand only at 30 plus that I am attracted to men. Up until then I thought I was asexual.
Great example! I think The experience of this spiky profile over time can be fascinating. Makes you wonder what the next decade will bring, right?
Thanks for sharing, Maru Terry!
I prefer not to think about the future because I think the current trend of selling mid-life audhd discovery as something like an eternal burnout is not very life-affirming. I am still struggling to find my own (non-commercial) versio of it.
Ooohh... I'd love your perspective on this. I'm struggling with the other side of the coin. The concept of making revenue from anything that could be related to personal discovery. One approach I've considered is to open-source the frameworks and tools, and then offering other services as revenue channels.
It can sometimes feel gross though, especially since the safety of souls is more important than $$.
Would you be willing to chat about any of this? I could use some more perspectives and it sounds like you've explored this a bit.